8/17/18 “Not a Ninja”

i am purging outside and in

there are boxes of stuff everywhere

i open a drawer and fall down a rabbit hole of

photos dust ball journals

yesterday i tripped over my angry lost child -

i fell over the most neglected subversive part of myself, go figure...

she wants to burn things down,

throw things and yell a lot.

i clean her off

anoint her in oil

swaddle her in sacred robes

i rock her

cry with her

wonder

waste time

whisper to my big self  "not a ninja"

sigh...

i am purging inside and out